Monday, December 6, 2010
Five indicative, irrefutable examples of why this mama is a Sooky La-La:
(nb. Feel free to eye-roll. No one would hold it against you. Even as you read, I, too, am engaged in exuberant, three-sixty degree eye-rolls).
I went to a music information night at the school a week ago. From the beginning of grade 3, all Steiner School students must learn a stringed instrument. There was an explanation that the violin, viola or cello becomes an extension of the body – of how the vibration is felt throughout the body, that the kids feel the music in their hearts. Cue: eye-welling, profuse blinking and double-time crochet in the pursuit of distraction and vestige of dignity. Eye roll.
Last year, when I watched the Grade Sixers farewell their school, I, (mostly inwardly), SOBBED. To the outside world this came over as a series of small, weirdy hiccups. I didn’t even know any of the Grade Sixers. But I did remember the mix of sweet exhilaration with excited trepidation on my last day of primary school. And these kids stood so tall. When I looked at the Grade Six parents they understandably appeared a bit wobbly. Which only inspired largish, weirdy hiccups. I’m going to be a basket case.
Sometimes when I tuck my kids in before I go to bed, I catch glimpses in the half-light, of faces breathtakingly open and innocent. Faces entirely given over to vivid dreams of what I guess to be prehistoric worlds, or fairies visiting from Hobart and holidaying in our apple tree, or pinkest-pink ballerina tutus. I bite the insides of my cheeks so that the Mr won’t notice the wobbly lower lip when I fall into bed.
Today is the eldest kid’s ninth birthday and secretly it’s just a tiny bit my birthday and the teeniest bit my milestone too. Last night, as I kissed her cheek and whispered for the last time ever, ‘Goodnight eight year old’, it was with a mixture of delight and regret and pleasure and uncertainty and excitement over what this next year and this next bit of future will bring. (Happy birthday, sweetheart).
Two tears plopped on to the space bar of my keyboard during the writing of this post.
BIGGEST eye roll.