Monday, December 6, 2010

Confessions of a Sooky La-La



Five indicative, irrefutable examples of why this mama is a Sooky La-La:
(nb. Feel free to eye-roll. No one would hold it against you. Even as you read, I, too, am engaged in exuberant, three-sixty degree eye-rolls).

Example 1
I went to a music information night at the school a week ago. From the beginning of grade 3, all Steiner School students must learn a stringed instrument. There was an explanation that the violin, viola or cello becomes an extension of the body – of how the vibration is felt throughout the body, that the kids feel the music in their hearts. Cue: eye-welling, profuse blinking and double-time crochet in the pursuit of distraction and vestige of dignity. Eye roll.

Example 2
Last year, when I watched the Grade Sixers farewell their school, I, (mostly inwardly), SOBBED. To the outside world this came over as a series of small, weirdy hiccups. I didn’t even know any of the Grade Sixers. But I did remember the mix of sweet exhilaration with excited trepidation on my last day of primary school. And these kids stood so tall. When I looked at the Grade Six parents they understandably appeared a bit wobbly. Which only inspired largish, weirdy hiccups. I’m going to be a basket case.

Example 3
Sometimes when I tuck my kids in before I go to bed, I catch glimpses in the half-light, of faces breathtakingly open and innocent. Faces entirely given over to vivid dreams of what I guess to be prehistoric worlds, or fairies visiting from Hobart and holidaying in our apple tree, or pinkest-pink ballerina tutus. I bite the insides of my cheeks so that the Mr won’t notice the wobbly lower lip when I fall into bed.

Example 4
Today is the eldest kid’s ninth birthday and secretly it’s just a tiny bit my birthday and the teeniest bit my milestone too. Last night, as I kissed her cheek and whispered for the last time ever, ‘Goodnight eight year old’, it was with a mixture of delight and regret and pleasure and uncertainty and excitement over what this next year and this next bit of future will bring. (Happy birthday, sweetheart).

Example 5
Two tears plopped on to the space bar of my keyboard during the writing of this post.

BIGGEST eye roll.

66 comments:

One Flew Over said...

Sooky la-la indeed but all examples listed are worthy of a cry x

chaletgirl said...

No eye-rolling here. Just tears.

I'm getting ready for my first-born to say goodbye to the preschool, where he has spent 3 years of his short life, and head off to 'big' school next year. I'm going to be a mess too.

Stomper Girl said...

I always get emotional at the Grade 6 graduation: HEAVEN HELP ME WHEN IT ACTUALLY FEATURES ONE OF MY CHILDREN!!!! Let's face it, once you have children you become completely soppy, I am not eye-rolling at you I am nodding along in sympathy. Happy birthday to your 9yo. My oldest will be 10 (double digits!!!) in January, I will be drowning in my soppiness then, don't you worry.

wishes, true and kind said...

Two tears plopped on to the space bar of my keyboard during the reading of this post.

swengie.g said...

I've been stopping by your blog ever since I saw a link to your Chickummyjig pattern ... and always thought "if I have kids, I sure hope I have at least a teeny bit of her humor & attitude" - so now I'm due in March and (hiccup lip wobble) thank you for your writing!

Lola Nova said...

Oh you silly mama!
Last week I wrote two posts about my daughter that had me drippy the entire time. I must be allergic to something, yes, that's it.
Hiccup!

My word verification is "lumplike" ha.

Kirsty said...

Happy Birthday to the biggest!

I'm a sook too but strangely not when the eldest finished year 6. She was really ready to go & I think I was anxious for a new beginning for her.

Sook as much as you like...it's good for you. x

silverpebble said...

I presume a sooky-la-la is the antipodean version of a great big Jessie. Your Jessie moments are understandable. Surely ANYTHING to do with the little ones could induce eye leakage. I dread to think what will happen when eldest, just turned five, plays an angel in the school nativity in a week and a half.

My worst Jessie moment is inexcusable: I went to watch 'PS I Love You' with two friends and did an actual very loud sob. In my defense I was pregnant but still. It was LOUD. And snotty.

Maggie said...

from one sooky lala to another... I'd get a catch in my throat thinking about that stuff too.

timelady said...

My eldest of five is 24 (youngest is 7).

I still get teary. They roll their eyes - but they tell their friends when they think i am not listening that mum REALLY cares.

Don't change:)

kellyi said...

My cousin was lamenting how fast the past two weeks have gone - his first child was born then.

My dd is TEN in a few weeks. A whole decade, and never-to-be-single-digits again. How sooky am I being about this?

Very.

Fer said...

No eye rolls from me. But when I'm this pregnant emotions run very high so I had to read this post rather quickly before turning into a sooky la la too.

And like 'timelady' said: Don't change.

:-)

Tas said...

I remember when I was pregnant with my first child bawling during an episode of "Walking with Dinosaurs" as the poor old alpha male dinosaur was on his last legs...beaten by the new young upstart...lying on the beach...all alone...dying...*sob* I am going to be the same as you. Methinks that as soon as you give birth, that's the way life is until the day you die- and it is a lovely thing. Sooky la las unite.

Michelle said...

Not a sook at all, just a beautiful mum. I found put on Saturday that my eldest's ballet teacher is moving to Sydney for 12 months and that bought me to tears.

Hayley Egan said...

happy birthday beautiful girl :)

mrs smith said...

Assemblies, parent help, one child singing, children's choirs, christmas parades - Ithe silent tears stream down my face! That my middle guy is starting full time school next year is my current tear jerker. Its the end of the previously endless free-as-a-bird days watching him delve deeper and deeper into his mysterious and complex imaginative world, left to his own devices, now sendign him offinto the structured world of school and ... excuse me I'm off for the kleenex.

faeryfay said...

OMG. I know exactly. I had a little mummy cry when I received a letter from the school saying all three of my daughters were getting awards this year. "Little Mummy Cries" are essential, even if a little embarrassing!:-)

Notchka said...

Sniff [while wiping eyes with back of hand feriously]. 'Nuf said.

Sue said...

and then after decades of emotional milestones you get to do it all again with the grandies. Yikes, will I never stop weeping?

ange_moore said...

Oh I love that faries visiting from Hobart would hang out in your apple tree! Have you guys visited Hobart? There is the most amazing Faerie Shop in Salamanca (where they hold the Saturday market) that would be perfect for making some of those dreams come true! Check out their website here http://www.faeries.com.au/

ange_moore said...

Oh, and I also cry every single time I watch The Muppet's Christmas Carol movie - at Tiny Tim's empty chair, even though I know he's going to be OK. I get teary just thinking about it! I'm seriously one great big Jessie sooky-sooky-la-la!!

Sandrine said...

Happy Birthday to your young lady.That is a gorgeous pic.
What a journey to be a mum I say... with the tears, the laugh, the cuddles the crazy wild moments and the eye rollings...:)xx

Leonie Guld said...

Geeeezzz your hopeless!! happy birthday OLD GIRL!!! I bet those tears will keep falling for all the years to come ;) xx

Lauren said...

Sooking and sobbing right alongside you, Tania. Happy birthday to your biggest and big squishy hugs to you too. xx

PS. I had a similar wobbly moment at the drama concert last night when some kid got a plaque for participating for 10yrs... big eye roll and please don't tell Huz.

Cass said...

Eyes welling up here too and I'm at work so no place for being a sook

Suse said...

Oh babe, wait until they perform on their instruments. If you're anything like me you'll be sobbing when the other kids play, let alone when it's your child's turn.

And congratulations on nine years of mothering. Nine is such a huge year - that whole existential crossing thing.

(My youngest performs this Thursday night and the cello mums are back up. Gulp).

x

Jodie said...

Love, remember the cute little ducklings on kleenex commercials....yep ! Every I sobbed every single time...just because they were cute. I didn't even personally know the bloody ducks.

ecoMILF said...

I'm a sooky-la-la too when it comes to watching my children sleep. I can't stay in the room too long or I start sobbing and harassing them with kisses. Some lovely moments you've captured here Tania. xo m.

Cath @ chunkychooky said...

I am gearing up for massive sobs this weekend with the end of year dance concert- friends kids only. Busy isn't even it and I know I will cry. I know it. I get tears every week at her swimming lesson. It is PATHETIC. I also cry when I look at her asleep and feel like my heart will burst though my chest. I am crying now just thinking about it.

Andi said...

You and I have rather a lot in common.
;)

gretchenmist said...

so nice that you can fess up here :)
the grade 6 thing would make me wobbly ~ felt that way when i saw my hubby's nephew's last day celebration {before i had kids}. actually i get slightly that way at my 6yr old's assembly every monday ~ they only have to say thanks to someone for all their effort etc !! happy birthday to your 9 yr old :)

spectacularfairywren said...

hankies to you darl...

A little 5yo violin busker made me weep on the weekend - she knew 'twinkle twinkle' and 'jingle bells' and neither well. And she made me tear up. Then my 3yo asked to put his 20c in her case and that is when i seriously lost it...

Kylie said...

Happy Birthday to your big girl!!! :) and Happy Birthday to you too? Did you say it's your birthday too? Happy birthday sooky mama (from another sooky mama).
K x

p.s. Feeling a bit guilty here... just got back from post officing off a package for the little one... whoops! Hope I don't cause any sibling cries of injustice ;)

Anna Bartlett said...

I teared up this morning simply walking into the Dorothy the Dinosaur concert with my 3 year old and my little niece... just knowing that being there was wonderful and that I didn't want to forget how lovely it is to do things with her. And my eldest's Year 7 grad last week was teary too, and just seeing the kids sleeping, with their long limbs and perfect skin and eyelashes and all their potential... it's a killer.

teddybearswednesday said...

nothing but sobs and Oohs over here. At least you had some sort of dignity managing to just hiccup, I would have been a mess, inside and out.
and this is understandable beautiful mummy stuff.
I sob at the Grand Final without fail for the losing side, even if I hate them.xo

Di said...

Ahhh, so sweet to hear the things that move you...
And sending some special birthday wishes your way :)

Del said...

Oftern read your blog but don't comment. Just been to visit 29 year old competent daughter who has broken her foot. Took care package of food and while we sat on the lounge and swapped gossip, she leaned on her Mamma just like she did when she born and all through her 29 growing years. She had survived a trauma but needed a temporary rest while no one was looking. Tears on the desktop.

Catherine said...

I'm too busy trying to control eye welling to partake in any eye rolling... thank you for a lovely post and happy birthday to your eldest!

thornberry said...

I cry all the time too - especially at school assembly. Especially when the junior choir sing. Or the band plays. Or they hand out awards. Or sing the national anthem...all the time really. Good thing I have my crochet to concentrate on too...and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Carla said...

Oh dear. At least I now know I'm not the only one. I cry at anything that involves singing children. And 100 other things. It was my birthday too this week, and I even cried then! A happy one to you from me, and long may the weeping continue.

Tracey said...

love to have a little sooky moment, wish I could cry a little more easily sometimes! What a lovely picture of you and your big girl xx

beck said...

Love that gorgeous photo, what a magic moment. From one sook to another, thanks for this special post xo

Sally said...

Oh no eye rolling here... I'm a sooky la la too.
Happy Birthday Ms. 9 (who is now in double figures as this is her tenth year ... did that make ya cry? Did it???)

brownhairblueribbon said...

Goodness you are a darling.

& your words just took me straight back to that last day of year six with startling clarity. Thank you for sharing your words and your way with them.


xo

Thea said...

Oh this brings back memories. I used to cry at EVERYTHING my kids did - school concerts, getting dressed for dances, etc. Now, they're not around and the dog doesn't really accomplish that much so I'm not so much of a sook. x

Madeline said...

No eyerolling here. Just smiling and a maybe a little dampness in the eyes. Stephan is always laughing at the way I tear up over every little thing.

june at noon said...

Now, you stop that eye-rolling! What's eye-rolling-worthy in a mama who loves her kids? Nine years--wow! I totally understand how a little one's birth can be your own sort of birth, too. Same for me. :)

A Peppermint Penguin said...

Happy Birthday to your big girl.

and Happy BIRTHday to you - ya big sook.

I love your family - it all seems perfect from this vantage point (no noise, no mess, no smells, just pretty pictures, PERFECT).

Have a hug and a tissue and roll on the next hiccupy moment.

Cheers,
AJ

Angus In Northcote said...

okay, so there's a lot of women in this thread talking about crying and eye-rolls. What happened, people? When we were in our twenties and didn't have children we were bullet-proof. Our indifference to the world and our lack of empathy for others was a badge of pride for our generation.

As a man of longstanding, I'd just like to say "My name is Angus, I'm from Northcote and I cried during last week's episode of Glee when the kids came down the aisle during the wedding".

p.s. example 3 got me.

Corrie said...

takes one to know one! I cried when the kindergarteners sang at an open day. didn't know any of the kids or if keira would go to school there. it was just so cute! wiping away the tears the whole time...hubby didn't get it!

Kate said...

Happy birthday to your biggest girl!
And I'm sooking along side you. All the time lately.
(shit and I think Bren might be sooking any minute because it is hailing...not the baby apples...) XX

mrs smith said...

Happy birthday to you! Hope it was a wonderful day.

Cris A said...

I'm the biggest sap there is when it comes to my kids milestones....my baby just turned 20!

Mel said...

Yeah I'm bloody rolling my eyes to blink away the tears! Thanks a LOT! Ok here's your opportunity to eye roll back at me: I received Ms-school-in-2011's school supplies list the other day and while I'm always up for fresh school supplies this really caught me off guard and planted a lump firmly in my throat. Secondly a remake of the movie Ice Castles was on telly on Sunday afternoon. I caught the last ten minutes and SOBBED openly! I can tell you there was muchos eye rolling coming from the Mr's direction and just a weird bewildered look from Ms 5.

Happy HAPPY birthday Ms 9!

Marcus said...

You're a sooky piker. Just _reading_ this made me well up ;-)

nikkishell said...

Being a sookie la la is a good thing :)
Happy birthday to Miss 9!

PottyMouthMama said...

Man I love you. Do I tell you that all the time? It's because I do love you.

jademondin said...

and what about the swallowed tears while reading this over HERE? Sob.

SmitoniusAndSonata said...

You're a Mum . We Mums are all the same , soppy !!

Nikki said...

Ohhhhh yeah..... sooky-la-la here, too...... you betcha.

Happy birthday to your gorgeous 9 year old!

Cathy {tinniegirl} said...

Sometimes I cry in the Kleenex ads, but don't tell anyone. I'm a massive sook.

Happy Birthday to you both. xxx

m.e (Cathie) said...

sooking is good for the soul!
well done on the milestone, happy birthday Miss 9 yr old.
thanks for making me cry here too...
happy day sooky lady ♥

heather said...

i could kiss her cheek in that picture. sooky sooky. you watch true blood? i love that name. sookie ....

i love crying over the children. crying in that sweet way. i have been balancing my frustrated cries with the sweet cries. i have. thankfully. and you remind me even if i weren't. last night, i totally woke olive up to snuggle in as i climbed in bed beside her. she was cool with it.

elly bee said...

I agree, having a glimpse at you sleeping child just before you go to bed yourself is absolutly the best moment of the day. I can stand there for minutes with feeling of complete happiness and wishing that this moment will last for ever..
eb xx

quirkygranolagirl said...

beautiful post. no eye rolls at all. just twinges in my chest.

Sarah said...

Oh you crack me up!